So here goes nothing.....in exactly 11 days our lives, schedules, routines, EVERYTHING will be changing drastically. My sweet Jax will be starting Pre-K....not just the Tuesday-Thursday school we have been doing...I mean, REAL Pre-K. Monday-Friday, 8:00 AM-3:30 PM. I am SO torn. My heart hurts...not for him but for me. I can't believe my baby, my first born is old enough to go to school. He, however, could not be more excited! He is so eager to learn, make new friends, be a real school boy! That is the reason we decided to go ahead and put him in full time Pre-K. For his sake, I could not keep him home another year. He gets so bored and I can just tell that he is ready. WAY more ready than Mommy. I know this will be a good thing. IT WILL be a good thing. This has definitely been one of the hardest decisions we've ever had to make. If I was making it for me then I would keep him home. But, this isn't about me, it's about Jax and what's best for him. Nobody ever said that letting go was going to be easy, but I NEVER knew it was going to be this hard.
Now, another exciting and huge decision we had to make was, where are we going to send our kids to school? We went back and forth, weighing each option, and we are SO excited about our decision and can't wait to be a part of the small community of New Home. It's a very small school about like Lazbuddie (where I'm from), and is very close to Lubbock. For now, we will transfer him back and forth. We hope to someday move further South to be closer.
Another big and difficult change for us is that we will be sending Maddox to Parents Day Out on Tuesdays & Thursdays. It is the same place that Jax has been going. This is going to be hard for me AND Maddox because, he is a huge momma's baby. Hopefully he will exceed all of my expectations, but right now, my feelings are not too good about leaving him. I know he will scream and be mad at me and that will break every piece of my heart. However, I know it's good for them so I have to do it. I'm just not good at goodbyes. I'm not good at letting them go, or dare I say, letting them grow up. I just don't understand how my baby boys are 4 1/2 and almost 2. Time needs to STOP! So, that's the new things going on in our lives. I will continue to keep you all updated on them and their progress! For now, I will leave you with this.....don't cry Mommy :'(
Now, another exciting and huge decision we had to make was, where are we going to send our kids to school? We went back and forth, weighing each option, and we are SO excited about our decision and can't wait to be a part of the small community of New Home. It's a very small school about like Lazbuddie (where I'm from), and is very close to Lubbock. For now, we will transfer him back and forth. We hope to someday move further South to be closer.
Another big and difficult change for us is that we will be sending Maddox to Parents Day Out on Tuesdays & Thursdays. It is the same place that Jax has been going. This is going to be hard for me AND Maddox because, he is a huge momma's baby. Hopefully he will exceed all of my expectations, but right now, my feelings are not too good about leaving him. I know he will scream and be mad at me and that will break every piece of my heart. However, I know it's good for them so I have to do it. I'm just not good at goodbyes. I'm not good at letting them go, or dare I say, letting them grow up. I just don't understand how my baby boys are 4 1/2 and almost 2. Time needs to STOP! So, that's the new things going on in our lives. I will continue to keep you all updated on them and their progress! For now, I will leave you with this.....don't cry Mommy :'(
To my sweet Jax,
You are the most vibrant, precious 4 year old I know. I will never forget the day you were born, your BIG eyes just looking around anxiously awaiting the world. You are a strong willed, independent, stubborn, but soft-hearted little boy. You care so deeply for others and you love life. Even though I am so sad to let you go, I know you will love going to school, meeting new friends, and most of all, beginning a new journey that will mold the next 14 years of your life. I am so proud to be your mommy and I can't wait to begin this crazy adventure with you! I love you MORE than you will ever know! Good luck with Pre-K!~xoxoxo
You are the most vibrant, precious 4 year old I know. I will never forget the day you were born, your BIG eyes just looking around anxiously awaiting the world. You are a strong willed, independent, stubborn, but soft-hearted little boy. You care so deeply for others and you love life. Even though I am so sad to let you go, I know you will love going to school, meeting new friends, and most of all, beginning a new journey that will mold the next 14 years of your life. I am so proud to be your mommy and I can't wait to begin this crazy adventure with you! I love you MORE than you will ever know! Good luck with Pre-K!~xoxoxo
To my sweet Maddox,
Where oh where do I start with you! From day 1 you have been the most difficult but precious little angel. You were a Momma's baby from the start, never wanting me to put you down, always needing to be rocked to sleep. I believe you will always be the dependent one and I love that. Me & Daddy will always hug you, kiss you, & rock you, no matter how old you get! Your the life of the party, always ready to jump in and have fun. Your VERY stubborn and you make sure everybody knows it! Your loud, rambunctious, and rough...your definitely ALL boy! Your my baby boy always & forever. I am not ready to let you go, but I know it will benefit you in so many ways, even if you hate me for it! I love you to the moon and back and don't you ever forget it! Good luck with PDO!~xoxoxo
Where oh where do I start with you! From day 1 you have been the most difficult but precious little angel. You were a Momma's baby from the start, never wanting me to put you down, always needing to be rocked to sleep. I believe you will always be the dependent one and I love that. Me & Daddy will always hug you, kiss you, & rock you, no matter how old you get! Your the life of the party, always ready to jump in and have fun. Your VERY stubborn and you make sure everybody knows it! Your loud, rambunctious, and rough...your definitely ALL boy! Your my baby boy always & forever. I am not ready to let you go, but I know it will benefit you in so many ways, even if you hate me for it! I love you to the moon and back and don't you ever forget it! Good luck with PDO!~xoxoxo
"You have to love your children unselfishly. That is hard. But it is the only way"~Barbara Bush
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